Delusions of Grandeur

When I was in the 10th Grade, I had to write a research paper for history. We were given a list of Civil War topics from which to choose.

  • My choice: General Irvin McDowell
  • Why?: Because his last name was the same as mine. And wouldn’t it be cool if I was related to someone famous?

Sadly, Irvin is not my long lost 3rd-Great-Uncle or even my 1st-Cousin-4x-Removed. He was just a very unskilled Union general1.

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Battlefield Drummer

Noah fidgeted with the rope draped around his shoulder. No one had told him how heavy the drum would feel after hours of marching in the afternoon sun. To make matters worse, Andrew’s uniform chafed.

This morning, he’d felt lucky to take his place when they’d learned his friend was ill, even though Ma wept like a baby, begging the Colonel to find someone else. “There is no one else, Elizabeth, and well you know it. Noah’s the only one who knows the rhythms.” He handed him Andrew’s uniform. “Hurry up, boy. We head out within the hour.”

The uniform was too large, of course; Andrew had five years on Noah’s seven. Still, Noah had peacocked round the yard, waiting for Butler signal their departure.

Now that the sun had warmed, though, making the wool jacket stink like wet mutton, he wasn’t quite so keen. And, his shins ached from the drum’s rim beating against his leg as they passed mile after mile of charred and smoking cabins north of Forty Fort.

At last Colonel Butler reined in his mount, and Noah beat the cadance to stop. Ahead, the walls of Wintermoot smoldered, smoke oozing between the logs of the protecting walls. “Come out, ye villainous Tories!” Butler shouted. “Come out and show your heads if ye dare.”

When no answer came, the colonel turned to his troops. “Prime and load,” he ordered. Noah repeated the command on his drum and the clatter of four hundred muskets being loaded echoed in the smoke thickening around them. “Make Ready. Take Aim. Fire.”

The troops fired three volleys in all, moving closer to the fort with each shot. Heat from the blaze beaded sweat on Noah’s forehead; at least he prayed it was just the heat and not the fear knotted in his belly causing the beads of moisture. He gripped the drumsticks tight, drawing his eyebrows together, trying hard not to think of Ma, or Andrew, or any of the folks he might never see again, when the colonel shouted, “Prime and load, boy; prime and load.”

But Noah had no time to beat the command, for in that moment, the woods erupted, blood-thirsty savages screeching their war cries, materializing from the very leaves that covered the forest floor, while in front of him gunfire exploded from the smoking timber. Fighting broke out all around him, men yelling, musket balls whistling overhead. At first he stayed close to Butler, but soon the smoke of musket fire—or was it burning timber?—made it impossible to see past his arm.

“Fall back,” he heard, Butler’s voice muffled by the grunts and flurry of fighting. Noah scrambled to join the company, but men began to break and run, Indians relentlessly at their heel; instead, he shrunk into the surrounding spinny, trying not to see, not to hear, the butchery around him.

The stink of gunpowder and sweat, blood and soot, permeated the smoke, burning his eyes. Erratic musket fire cut through the fog and just beyond the bush that hid him, a great slurping sound, like a boot being pulled from the muck, alerted him and he turned in time to see a bayonet being pulled from Jeb Johnson’s gut; he retched when the stench of open bowels reached him.

What happened after, he couldn’t say for sure, a blur of sights and sounds he’d rather forget: the crack of bones splintered by musket balls, screams of men dying, screams of men killing, Billy Lothrop’s vacant stare as his hair was pulled taut, his scalp hacked away.

A boot broke through his cover of branches, and he curled around himself like a doodlebug, waiting for the end.

Noah Taylor was seven years old when war broke out in the tiny hamlet he called home. His father, Ezra, was part of the Connecticut Continental Army captured at Fort Washington (see this post) and was jailed Continue reading “Battlefield Drummer”

A Sugar House Christmas

Ezra Taylor stared at the decorated tree through the narrow slot built into the sugar house. Hessian soldiers had spent the afternoon festooning the limbs of the fir with apples, candied fruits, and ribbons. He’d thought it an odd custom at the time but now that candles flickered in the boughs, its beauty mesmerized him.

“Taylor, you gonna stare at them soldiers all night? Come eat. Walley will be back any moment, and then you’ll get nothing,” Small William said. William’s perpetual stoop in the low ceilinged prison had earned him the incongruous moniker “small”, despite his six foot plus stature; hell, even Ezra, at five feet seven, had developed a bowed posture after only six weeks in the storehouse the British used for a jail.

He sighed. The rich aroma of mince pie and roast mutton abounded, making it almost possible to forget he was held captive were it not for the icy night air swirling about and the squalid mass of humanity huddled with him in the corner. They had scrambled forward when Sgt. Walley appeared, bucket in hand. “It’s a Christmas feast, lads” he’d said, as if the bits of rancid pork and worm-riddled biscuits were what all the fashionable people were eating this Christmas.

Still, bad food was better than none. Their last meal had been two days ago.

“You can have my portion, Will. I haven’t the stomach for it. Besides, I’d like to sit a bit longer and listen to the singing.”

The carols made him think of home. And Elizabeth.

If he closed his eyes, he could see her standing in front of their hearth, singing quietly while she stirred the kettle, an refugee curl escaping from her cap. The cabin would smell sweet, of mountain laurel and yew; the fire beckoning him into its warm glow.

Snow fluttered in, and with it a frosty chill, shattering the image in his head. He tried to hold onto the vision of Elizabeth singing but it distorted into the Hessians’ drunken rendition of Joy to the World, leaving him once more prisoner to Christmas in the sugar house.

a fictional account of Ezra Taylor in the Sugar House

Having never been a soldier…

or a prisoner, I find it difficult to imagine how Ezra might have felt that Christmas in 1776, captive in the Liberty Street Sugar House. Continue reading “A Sugar House Christmas”